I am sorry: you wanted me to motivate you & push you & force you to be better.
But I saw what you going through. I didn't think I could kick you while you were down. I love you, down or not. I would have loved you if you never got back up. But that isn't what you wanted.
& no matter how many times you told me , I couldn't bring myself to be that for you. But understand, it's because I love you & because I always had faith that you would get there,
On your own,
When you were ready.
& even if you hadn't.
The reality is: I would have loved you, worshipped you, admired you forever even if all you ever aspired to be was mine.