When I'm being honest with myself, I can admit that I still think (frequently) of Crane.
If you were here in October/November, you may remember that I wrote some not great things about him. If you can believe it, (and after the scathing things I've written here about perfectly nice people, you readily can) I said even worse things to his face.
If I could do it again, I'd take back all the shitty things I said and my temper tantrums and instead, would just have said, "I'm hurt that you gave away so quickly something I wanted."
At the end of the day, that's what this all boils down to.